The Fight Continues

As grateful I am for this new lease on life that God has graciously provided, my actions and behavior have really shown otherwise. One would think that after being healed from battling cancer, I would transform my eating habits drastically to prevent a possible recurrence. I suppose just the whole idea of me being healed and now deemed a "survivor" was all too surreal for me and really took some time for it all to sink in. Now that I've managed to clear my head, I'm ready to get back into the ring and give cancer a major knockout. Eugene purchased this book for me right before I started my chemotherapy treatment. I have to admit that initially it was all too depressing to read about the author's remedies for common side effects such as nausea, dehydration, mouth and throat sores, and other unsightly ailments. I didn't want to read about the issues I would inevitably have to deal with as a result of chemotherapy so I shut the book and stored it away never to be cracked open until now...a year later.

So, in order to making changes in my diet, I will attempt to go through every recipe in this book.


I'll start by preparing one dish a week and gradually work my way up to more until I am preparing a dish everyday from this cookbook. I'll even post the recipes on my blog if you feel inspired to create nutritionally-based dishes, too. Let's get to cooking!

Summer has officially started

It's been H-O-T here in the East Bay and I'm ready to experience some nice cool weather in Carlsbad. So excited for our upcoming family vacation...Legoland, golfing (for dads), outlet shopping (for moms) and a SD Padres game. Will post pics of the vacation.

I've been feeling better since radiation ended but the fatigue still lingers. Got hit with a nasty bug a couple of weeks ago and then gave it to Alicia. :(

Kids enjoyed VBS this week and it serves as a reminder that this time last year is when I found out I had cancer. What a difference a year makes. So here's a reminder to all of my girlfriends...don't forget to give yourself regular self-exams and if there is a history of breast cancer in your family, please make an appointment for a mamogram.

Radiation Complete - Check!

After 28 LONG days, I've finally completed radiation treatments! Woo hoot! Yahoo! Hallelujah! Friends have asked what it feels like to receive radiation and the simple answer is I feel nothing. The actual treatment lasts no more than 10 minutes. It's just very uncomfortable laying on a very hard table with my arms propped up over my head and having to lay very still the entire time. As luck would have it, I was stricken with a very bad cold the last two weeks and would have coughing spasms during each treatment. Suffice it to say, everything went well and I can finally close this chapter of my cancer journey. My chest is discolored and very tender but the doctor assures me that my skin should heal in a matter of weeks. I have never experienced a bad sunburn but I imagine this is what it would feel like.

Though radiation therapy is over, I have to take very good care of my skin for the rest of my life. Since I had lymph nodes removed from my right arm and have received radiation, I am at greater risk for lymphedema, which causes unusual swelling of the arm. Therefore, I must refrain from a number of things to reduce the risk, such as:
No hot baths/showers
No saunas
No hot tubs
No blood drawn or blood pressure on right arm
No perfumed lotion on right arm
No shaving (yikes)
Must wear compression sleeve when flying
No pulling weeds (darn)
No vacuuming (double darn)
No heavy lifting
No fast repetitive motion (makes food prep difficult)

I've come to accept this as my "new normal" and won't allow myself to feel depressed over all of these new adjustments in my life. God provided me with a new lease on life and I am forever grateful for His grace and mercy upon me. Just need to keep my chin up and continue living and loving the life God has restored. :)

Team Helen Beats Cancer

Thank you for the enormous amount of support and prayers you have shared with me and my family over the past several months. As I am regaining strength from surgery, it brings me so much joy and peace knowing that your prayers have surely sustained me throughout my cancer treatments.


There is much to be thankful for as evidenced by my recent pathology report. According to the report, chemotherapy greatly reduced the size of the tumor and the disease had not spread to the lymph nodes. The surgeon was able to remove enough tissue from the breast that a clear margin was shown, which means no trace of cancer was left behind. Both my surgeon and oncologist safely proclaim that I am in remission...Cancer Free!

What's next for me? I will continue receiving the drug Herceptin at the chemo clinic every three weeks until October of this year and radiation treatments will begin mid-April for 5 weeks, Monday-Friday.

Though I, or rather, WE have successfully beat cancer, I want to continue cherishing Christ and thanking God for carrying me through this journey. As John Piper describes his experience with cancer as one "designed for you by God, so you will not waste it," I am sure that God's aim was for me to rely utterly on Him, to deepen my love for Christ and to lean on the sufficiency of Christ.

To all of you who have prayed and fasted for me, prepared delicious meals for my family, been a friend/brother to Eugene, cared for Maddy and Alicia, picked up my kids from school, drove me to chemo/doctor visits, offered medical services and advice (my Kaiser buddies), walked/ran in Susan G. Komen events, wore pink (thanks Faith Community Church in Fullerton), encouraged me to do my exercises, made me eat lots and lots of protein, traveled hundreds of miles to visit, reminded me that my hairless existence suits me, and supplied countless other blessings, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love all of you and thank God for bringing you into my life. God bless you!


"Bless the Lord, O my Soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." Psalms 103:1-5

Post-Op

It's been four days since surgery and by God's grace, the pain has lessened and I have been trying to wean myself off of the pain medication. I am so deeply thankful to all of you for your prayers and support. Surely, it is through your mighty prayers that has allowed me to persevere through chemotherapy and now through surgery/recovery. As my doctor expected, recovery has been quite manageable with little discomfort. I have limited mobility in my right arm since lymph nodes were removed from the right armpit. But with exercise and time, I should be able to regain most of my strength and mobility in my right arm.

A sweet moment between husband and wife

Dear friends Linda and Tina keeping me company hours before surgery

God has also blessed me with family and friends who have volunteered to help me and the family. Eugene's mother spent two nights with the girls while we were away at the hospital. She picked up Maddy from school, fed the girls and kept them busy in our absence. My mother flew in on Monday and plans to stay for a week and a half. The girls are so excited to have "LA Halmuni" around for so long since they rarely get to spend time with her. In addition to having an extra set of hands around the house, friends from church have volunteered to provide the family with a meal for several weeks. I can't begin to tell you how grateful I am for the many hands preparing and serving us with delicious meals. We are truly blessed to be surrounded by such a loving and helpful community of friends and family.

Feeling thankful and overjoyed for God's mercy upon me.

Hello World!
After receiving several reminders from friends and family to update the status of my health, I've decided to come out of hiding (or rather laziness) to do just that. As of Thursday, February 3rd, I have completed chemotherapy treatments. Yahoo!!!! It's quite surreal to think that I have been receiving various cocktails of chemotherapy since last July and that all came to an end this month. I still have to go into the chemo clinic to receive Herceptin (a live agent, not a chemo drug) intravenously but really, it's like I'm receiving water in my veins. Absolutely no side effects from Herceptin. I'm still having to deal with lingering neuropathy in my extremities, mostly in my fingertips, but otherwise, I'm feeling quite fantastic.

Hair is slowly growing in but it's odd how it's taking shape. Most of my strands are about an inch long and much to my chagrin, the greys have made a return as well. Boo! So, the back of my head is full of hair but not so much on top. My nurse describes my hair growth as male pattern balding. At this rate, I'll be sporting a rather nasty mullet. What a vision I'll be. :(

A bilateral mastectomy surgery is scheduled for Friday, February 25th. I'm still thinking and praying over the possibility of having breast reconstruction but after sitting in two meetings with two different plastic surgeons, and hearing the number of options along with the risks involved, my gut tells me to just forgoe reconstruction. I have a few days to think about it and discuss it at greater length with Eugene so I would definitely covet your prayers at this time for wisdom and discernment to make the right decision.

Sasquatch

I have been blessed with an abundance of hair on my head. Not only do I have an incredible amount of hair but each strand is oddly thick. Along with my massive thick mane, I also have embarrassingly hairy arms. Now, my first thought and hope was that chemo would cause the hair on my arms to fall off. I even asked my surgeon if the hair on my arms would disappear. She laughed so hard at my inquiry and said that in all her years of practicing medicine, not one patient had ever approached her with that question. True to form, I have lost a good amount of hair from my arms where I can actually see several open pores. It's so nice to finally see the skin on my arms as opposed to the fur that could rival Esau's arms.

But in all seriousness, the weekly chemo treatments have shown very little side effects. I am a bit tired but not enough to keep me home bound or bed ridden. From time to time I do experience some slight tingly (is that a word?) in my extremities (Neuropathy) but it doesn't bother me at all. I'm so thankful to God that His mercies have been steadfast and new every morning. What a testament to His faithfulness and goodness as I am able to walk away from chemotherapy feeling healthy and well.

I'll be heading into the clinic tomorrow for another dose of chemotherapy. So thankful that my dear friend Linda will be accompanying to the clinic. Will try to post more often. :)