New Cocktail

More than once I've been told to update my blog more often. I don't know why I have been neglecting my poor blog. I'll definitely make a concerted effort to keep you up to date in regards to my health and state of mind.

Can you believe I'm half-way done with chemotherapy? As triumphant and relieving it is to know that I've hit the half-way mark, I can't help but struggle with feelings of nervousness as I prepare for tomorrow's round of chemo. I'll be administered with a new "cocktail" of chemo drugs and am not looking forward to the side effects. But I have to maintain my trust in the Lord and take comfort in His sovereignty. As I shared with the moms in my weekly bible study, I want to be able to find joy during this time of struggle and uncertainty. Though I may not understand why this trial has been placed in my life, I believe that God has orchestrated every single event in my life for His own glory.

So, I've committed to memorizing a set of Fighter Verses with a couple of friends from church. I'm not exactly astute when it comes to memorization (I blame MOMnesia) so this is going to be quite a challenge for me but one I'm truly looking forward to. Here's the first one I'm currently meditating on:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. YOu will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart, I will be found by you, declares the Lord." Jeremiah 29: 11-14a

Please keep me in your prayers as I begin weekly doses of chemotherapy. Pray that my body would respond well to the drugs and that side effects would be minimal. And though I will be hit with fatigue and possibly nausea, pray that it would not cause me to lose patience with my children and my husband.

Thank you and God bless!